I'm not honestly sure who loves more or if either of them do.

I was influenced by V, but then that is strict Dean POV, so. :)

I think Sam would rather Dean live. Hard call to make.

It really is... Sam already knows what it is to be the person left behind, but parsing whether he'd want Dean in that position requires knowing the depths of Sam's feelings for Jess, and what Sam believes about the depth of Dean's feelings for him.

Basically, it's a great big tangle of pain and *cough* I'm kinda drawn to that :)