" how, after a lifetime of actively trying to cultivate colorblindness I now resent (because it is my privilege as a white woman to do so) discovering that that effort may have been misguided and even hurtful in ways I never intended."

Okay, THAT is probably the most thought-provoking and insightful thing that I've read recently that reflects (unfortunately) my own experience, my own racism.

Perhaps that's the thing - a good thoughtful writer encapsulates the experiences of others - even if you feel like you're just trying to unpack your own?

And where that becomes, jeez, practically a public service, is that others have to take that away and think more about it -as I am now provoked to do. So, it's not just a mirror of your own concerns, it's a mirror to me of mine? And so much more articulate and to the point than I have yet been capable of on my own?

And... it doesn't read as self-justification, it reads as a challenge against self-justification - not to let ourselves off lightly simply because we MEAN well. Personal truth isn't of necessity self-indulgence, either.

It's an uncomfortable position for a reader, as well as a writer.

So I reckon you should write it, I suppose I'm saying. I guess that's presumptuous, if so, I'm sorry (but obviously not enough not to say so, :) ).