Maygra's Musings

Escapade was awesomesauce.

I didn't get to thank everyone who made it possible but thank you, thank you. Even the fact that I have the con-crud does not diminish the simple pleasure just being around people I like was.

I've got not much else. Return to work was the usual flurry of stuff wot did not get done while I was gone, plus the planning and execution of two company-wide events that happened this week.

Escapade reminded me that I didn't used to be so hermitish. I really only had one incident of note (to me) which Rache kindly helped resolve. the rest of the time I found quiet when I needed it... I have a feeling having the beach so close was a big plus there, rain or no. I spent a lot of time walking along it in the early early that is my habit whenever I hit the west coast.

I went back and re-read some of the Never series in SPN, finding I still like it and even remember where I was going with it. That hasn't actually translated into anything yet.

I'm working on uploading my stories to And Archive of Our Own. Someone kindly sent me what they had on their hard drive but I'm having to do a lot of html stripping and actually formatting, more than I expected, but I shouldn't be surprised. Most of what I have was written and coded long before CSS or any or the simpler coding and even my old word documents are showing some surprisingly unsupported character returns, so it's mostly been about turning it all into text files and recoding them. Ugh. But, it's happening and I'm relatively committed to getting it done this year if nothing else. Sooner would be better but there's still only so many hours in a day I'm willing to be on the computer to do it. I might feel lest frustrated if I load later stuff, but it's the older stuff that's not available any longer, so, Duncan and Methos once more have most of my attention, if not the same loving cruelty I use to greet them with.

Personally, I like dark chocolate wee bears, but that's just me. (Also, I keep forgetting this is over here. *facepalm*)

( No talking with your mouth full! )

This is an index, alphabetized. These were uploaded from my old hard drive, so they should be clean. If you don't have virus software though, for god's sake, don't download them until you do. There's plenty of decent free virusware out there. These are older files and only the html so there are going to be graphics place holders that you'll have to ignore.

It's not all of it, just most of it. It's an open index at the moment until I can figure out what to do or build a new page. (There may be a couple that aren't mine -- I hosted a lot of people and this was the directory the old page was stored in. I'll clean them off as I find them.)

http://assignations.org/maygra/legacy/hl/

I'm working on Mag7, TPM and whatever else I can dig off that old drive. Eventually they'll go up at and Archive of Our Own, I hope. But not today.

I don't get them. If you use the messaging feature on LJ it may be weeks before I actually remember to check it.

I've LJ set to not send me notifications either on comments or messages. The best and the only way to get in touch with me if you need something is to email me.

And I'm not trying to be a bitch when I say you may have to do it more than once. Things are not great in Maygra-land (although they are getting better) and some days, email is more than I can deal with.

So, some really quick things:

Yes, you can link to, Translate into another language, rec, reformat, riff or write a coda to anything of mine posted on the web. The only thing I've ever asked for is that you give credit where it's due.

I'm not friending people at the moment on this journal. I'm barely checking it. If and when I post fic, it will be posted publicly on the maygra_fic comm (which I will change from needing approval to join if I can remember how.) Almost all my older stuff can be found at http://assignations.org/maygra. It's kind of a mess, but I think *most* of it is working.

The status of the wordmiths.net is probably....dead and gone. I've cleaned and deleted it three times and I'm still getting malware warnings. At this point I'm probably going to kill the site entirely, casue I really can't afford to keep paying for a site that I can't use.

Fixing the still broken parts of assignations.org is on hold. I honestly don't have the resources (mentally or time wise) to deal with the damage done last year. I know the links are broken even though most of the content is actually still up there. If you are looking for Highlander, M7, SWTPM, Immortal Nights, or anything that's not on the Assignations site, I got nothing for you at the moment. If we're all lucky, I'll actually have my shit together by the time An Archive on Our own goes live. .. assuming it hasn't, which it could have -- I have no idea. I'm guessing that at some point I'll actually know that it has.

I will do my best to try to remember to unlock the fic on this journal and make it public again. I'm sincerely, honestly flattered and humbled people are looking for the older stuff and I profusely apologise that it's not as easily accessible as it once was.

I think I've posted about my use of warnings, and my desire for them, ad nauseum in prior posts. (check the fandom needs an intervention tag).

That said, my bottom line is, as a reader, I choose what I choose to read. That's not to discount other people's issues, triggers, protests, or opinions. My issues with death fics are probably not on par with the triggering issues that launched this whole mess (and it is a mess. Not a wank, not a kerfluffle, not an imbroglio -- it's a mess and a mess that may never be entirely cleaned up,) but neither is it as simple a reaction as it makes me sad, or depressed or merely makes me unhappy. I have a phobia -- one that manifests itself in certain kind of death situations be they real or imagined. I take drugs for this particular phobia.

And still, I click and I read. Or I look and I ask someone else to read it -- or tell me how the movie or the book ends.

I warn because I choose too, and for any of you who have ever read my stuff (which I assume is most of you) you know that I warn past even the most reasonable of expectations.

And yet, I still get the occasional note, or comment, or once in a great while a full-on rant about how I failed to give sufficient or clear warnings about something. Or challenging my assessment of what I warned for...uhm, thanks, yes, I do think I know the difference between non-con and rape. Or Dub-con and non-con, I'm terribly sorry you don't agree, please to not be reading any more of my fic. mkay? thnx.

And frighteningly enough, I've spent a fair amount of time over the last week reading through various comments and posts and opinions and rants and attacks and counter-attacks and have come to the conclusion that there are people with whom I've long disagreed but thought otherwise had valuable things to say or valid opinions, who at the moment, I'm not liking very much any more, and having been away from active fandom for awhile, am kind of wondering why I both to continue to hold onto the idea that it's possible to reasonably disagree, and cut so many people so much slack. Because quite honestly, some of you who have access to this journal have seriously shown your asses.

Something to ponder. I'm not posting much, fiction will remain open. I may move to dreamwidth. In the meantime... I may be doing a bit of a filter tweaking. Not that it matters. Coming back to this, does not exactly make me yearn for fandom as an entity.

Updated from the comments:

They [readers] aren't entitled to it [information/warnings/summaries, etc.]. Does it help a writer get an audience if they include a bit of information, hell, yes. But Readers aren't entitled to any information -- or in terms of fanfiction (as opposed to things sold or available on the open market) to anything but what a fan writer gives them. It is to the author's benefit to provide some information. However, if they don't want to take advantage of that benefit, they don't have to. Not in their own journals, websites and communities.

Both Websites are coming down. I don't have the time or brain power to deal with them at the moment, since the only way both sites could be taken is if there's actual someone with access to this computer. I kind of doubt they've been trolling WHOIS looking for someone with multiple websites. Whihc means all of my passwords have been comprimised including my bank and personal financial accounts.

Those of you looking for my older stuff in any fandom, sorry. I don't know when any of it will go back up. Most of my SPN and TFAF stuff is in this journal and I'm assuming that it's secure for the moment.

Those of you who have stuff hosted at either Wordsmiths or Assignations, I hope you have copies -- you might want to find someplace else to host it.

Anyone who can help pass the word (say to the M7 & Highlander crowd) I'd appreciate it.

Just a heads up. the Assignations.org domain has been hacked and reported as giving out malware on access. We've done a clean up on all the affected pages and according to the diagnostics on google we haven't infected any other sites and the actual Trojan is low risk for damage, but please make sure you virus software is up to date.

The breach has been closed and we've removed and/or replaced the affected files. (for those hosting fic on my site, apologies if you've lost any recent updates. I didn't have copies of them and so restored older versions.)

Only the index pages were affected for the most part and I'm going to be replacing those as I can.

sorry for the mess.