FIC LINK: Room and Board (SPN: Sam/Dean) Mature Audiences Only

[maygra]

Title: Room and Board
Author: Maygra
Fandom: Supernatural
Status: Complete
Ratings: Mature Adults Only
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Warnings: Incest. Graphic sex. Rent-boy Fic. Mild reference to bondage and dicipline. Horrible rent boy cliches. Apologies to my hometown for any and all slurs, deserved as they may be at times. I am not a lawyer nor do I play one on TV. There's as much accuracy in the legal bits here as I and my court recorder friend could put together before bogging down helplessly. We're probably slightly more accurate than the WB would ever be on local statutes, laws, and allowable diversion of court resources.

Also, The Hex is a real place, (just not by that name) and as far as I know, Greg (not his real name) is a totally nice guy. Markos (not his real name), however, is a jerk and deserves what he got.

The following is a work of fiction. It is meant for mature adults and deals with mature themes.

Notes: Many, many thanks to aukestrel, thisisbone and a_mews for editing, betaing and going above and beyond the call.

This story was inspired by the picture you can find here and is a Christmas present for elynross whom you may all blame thank for me writing SPN slash at all. She wanted me to share.

The characters and situations portrayed here are not mine, they belong to the WB. This is a fan authored work and no profit is being made. Please do not link to this story without appropriate warnings. Please do not archive this story without my permission.

Comments

[elynross.livejournal.com]

Oh, happiness. Simply fabulous, all of it. You've pulled the potential and depth out of the show and subtly painted it all through the story, weaving their current situation back through their growing up, Dean being the one to really take particular care of Sam, passing on what Dad taught him, giving the sense that Dad loved them, but was so focused on the monsters that it was up to Sam and Dean to make the family.

I love how Dean struggles with the whole thing, parses out what he doesn't (mostly) care about: Sam's having sex, with whoever, realizing that Sam is really an adult, and that while it's the money for sex, it's that he's having to do it for Dean, that it's Dean's stupidity that brought out Sam's stupidity, that this once, he not only didn't protect Sam (and who cares if Sam is an adult and can take care of himself?), but he's the one that put him in harm's way. That he finds that the Sam he knew before Sam took off for college is still there, but there are new things, ways he doesn't know Sam, that he's finding out, and that he's not sure if he likes them, or not, because it changes who they are to each other -- changes who Dean is, in relation to Sammy.

I just love how the reveals of bits of their past, of how they've related (for instance, how Dean hates heart-to-heart talks) are just slipped in so naturally, enriching the whole.

... the same way he won't talk about his nightmares or give out information on the four years of his life Dean totally missed, like if Sam gives too much away there won't be anything left or it will all be gone, maybe like it never was.

And there it is: Sam has something that's just his, that changes him, that makes him more than just Dean's little brother, and Dean doesn't know that part, and it hurts, even as he's proud of him -- and can't say it. He didn't know how much he thought of Sam as his until he realized that Sam was his own.

And I'm stunned with how well it works for Dean not to really deny his own possible sexual attraction to Sam. He doesn't say it in so many words, even in his own head, but the thoughts of possession, of Sam giving himself to strangers and not to Dean -- it's there, and it's not that he's comfortable with it, but he's honest about it, and I am so in love with that. Denial and not knowing the truth can get you killed, after all. All you have to rely on is yourself; you're your best weapon, so you have to know exactly how you work.

And you fooled me, you know? You get them on the edge of the chasm, and Dean realizing it, realizing it's both of them, it's there, and then you have:

Sam drops his gaze and Dean can almost feel the chasm recede and Sam with it. He's not sure they'll ever find their way back here again or if they'll even try, but there's never been a gulf so wide he won't leap it for his brother, because there's never been anyone as important to him as Sam is and he's not sure he ever really knew that until now except as an excuse to do some incredibly stupid things of his own.

And I thought, oh, the witch! She's going to leave me drowing in UST, and, and, and that's okay! I said to myself firmly. It's a gorgeous story, and it's okay, because it's there, and he realizes it and--

--and then Dean kissed him, and it was incredible because it was a surprise, and it was out in the sunlight, and it was so. Just. Wow.

And then:

"No…no. But fucking in public…that could get us in trouble," he says and he's so calm about it and so absolutely sure that Dean almost comes right then.

and then I died. Because Sam is so calm and so sure, and that's somehow so incredibly fucking hot and. And then Dean comes, and he starts to give Sammy a handjob, and I'm back, and what kills me then is this:

He'll sell his body or his soul for his brother but won't sell himself, or give himself away to anyone. Not even to Dean and its got nothing to do with love or lack of it and everything to do with who Sam is and what he's lost and could still lose and what he's willing to risk to get at least some of it back.

part two

[elynross.livejournal.com]

I said I loved epiphany, and this story has it in spades, in layers and increasing depth, physically, emotionally, on levels I never could have anticipated. Dean finding out not only about himself, but about Sam, and who he is, and what he's capable of, and that's he's his own, and always and forever Dean's, as well, as much as anyone can be someone else's, and.

I adore this. Best Christmas Present EVER. Seriously, I'm melting, with the sex and the emotion, and depth of them, and the sweetness, and while I've said a lot, really? I have no words to really let you know how much I love this. It's perfect.

[sylph-ironlight.livejournal.com]

This was absolutely gorgeous. I'd try typing out a really long comment on what I liked best and why, but I'd just be retyping out the whole story :D Loved it and it's going in my memories.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! I'm really glad you liked and totally flattered that you want to save it. Thank you.

[shealynn88.livejournal.com]

Have I told you lately that I love you? Wow, you write so amazingly!! This was so wonderful, and while the sex is hugely hot and fun to read, I especially love the character study, the way you explore the two of them and make it absolutely believable and right that they should end up with one another.

You have a great way with words. If I quoted all the lines I loved, you'd be reading your story all over again. But these really struck a cord:

He feels kind of vaguely flattered except that in the total apple cart of weirdness going on right now, that one tastes a little more rotten than the others.

OMG, so funny! And you couldn't have said it any better!

Dean's not worried about it. His soul's already taken.

Oh, this was sweet and right and somehow sad and painful, in the very best of ways. My heart is broken, and hopeful, and just... oh, huge lack of words, here...

::dead::

[maygra.livejournal.com]

::Smooch::

thank you so much! Hee. I do love them and their snarking and the cover it is for how much they mean to each other. YAY!

Thank you.

[lea-ndra.livejournal.com]

just wanted to say, I love your fics, and this, once more, proved to be one of the best I've read in the SPN fandom so far.

thank you, I enjoyed myself sooooo much.

I'm still flabberghasted at the sheer amount of words you manage to write in such a short amount of time.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

You are very, very welcome and thank you for such kind words.


And uhm, yeah, sometimes the word count can be a little disturbing [g] from this end too.

[wrenlet.livejournal.com]

*blissed* Trust you to do rent-boy fic with such... class. Sounds odd, I know, but I can't think of another word, the way Sam is still Sam and Dean is so Dean... *waves hands vaguely*

Hooker!fic is crack to me, but it is so often crack and this is not.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

It's crack to me too. Seriously.

:::headdesk:::

My kinks are many and shallow.

I'm so glad you enjoyed it. Thanks!

[esorlehcar.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow. This was just so wonderfully hot and satisfying, in any number of ways. Very nicely done.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[drinteot.livejournal.com]

This is a jewel of a story. You pulled me into this fandom with your earlier stories and now I'm locked in firmly. Thanks so much for letting us all share in this present. It's made an indelible impression.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

You are more than welcome. I'm thrilled that you enjoyed it. Thank you so very much.

[digital-opium.livejournal.com]

As always, I absolutely love your take on the boys.

You've put in so many elements of the two, especially of Dean, that I always like to play with when writing Dean. Especially his almost-unacknowledged possessiveness... John gave Sam to Dean so many years ago, and he's belonged to Dean ever since. That's my absolute favorite one.

Anyway, I'm of course waiting for more! I adore your writing. Thanks for the story!

[maygra.livejournal.com]

Thank you so very much. Yeah, Dean does kind of have this proprietary vibe going with Sam that's not quite possessiveness and not quite bossiness. IT's a very odd but interesting thing to watch happen.

I'm so glad you liked it all.

[brynwulf]

Gah! I'm so torn!! I love you and I love your fic and I want to beta, but I might have to stop reading it for a bit because our brains and our kinks are forever linked and I don't want my stuff to look like a cheap knockoff!

[maygra.livejournal.com]

a) You absolutely don't have to read or beta. I love it when you do, but seriously, hon, it's a huge favor I ask of you pretty regularly. I'm not going to get made or not ask you to look at the next one if you say no to ne.

b) Your stuff could never look like a cheap knockoff. Ever. If anything I think out work comploiments each other in some cool ways.

and c) All that said, I would rather have stuff of yours to read becasue you know...I love to go gaga over good fic. [g]

[kimmyray.livejournal.com]

I absolutely adored this story, just like all of your other work. I've been a huge fan ever since I read the first parts of False Comforts and have made a habit of checking every day since then to see if you've written anything new. I've been shy about posting feedback before this, since I don't have anything particularly eloquent to say, other than thanking you profusely for sharing your wonderful work with us.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

What you've said is very gratifying and I thank you for it. I am so very glad you are enjoying my work and I appareciate your taking the time to comment at all. It means a lot.

[brandil.livejournal.com]

This rocked. Sorry for not providing more coherent or specific feedback. Does general squeeing bother you?

[maygra.livejournal.com]

IT does not.[g] I'm glad yo liked it.

[robby1925.livejournal.com]

This was amazing. You did an incredible job, with their characterizations and the story itself. I can't wait to read more your work.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

Thank you so very much. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[itwasmeantto.livejournal.com]

I just honestly don't know how you do it... All of your stories are just mind numbingly brilliant... You have sooo much talent, and apparently one heck of a muse... All I can say, is if you ever decided to write a book... You'd be rich... ;o)

~B~

P.S. Would it be alright, if I asked you to befriend me? -curtsies-

[maygra.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!

And I've got you friended

[(Anonymous)]

As always you blow me away with your work...

I mean really like he was taking breakfast and it was the most important meal of the day" *snicker* that was beautiful.

I can't wait to see what happens next in this arc, and I'm waiting on your other arcs impatiently. Though there are many authors in this genre, you've outdone yourself in the supernatural fandom.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm having such a good time. I love that other people are enjoying it too.

[amberlynne.livejournal.com]

I have to say, I've been dragged kicking and screaming in to the 'cest-deep end of the pool by this damn show. I've never enjoyed that sort of thing, but these boys just make it so hot. I share this because I wanted you to know that you made it seem so believable. The revelations, the inner workings of Dean's mind really lend themselves to these brothers being that close.

Excellent, excellent stuff. :)

[maygra.livejournal.com]

:::buys more bus passess:::

Waaaaay back when, we had a huge disussion aobut it... aobut the fact taht (for me, at least) part of what makes it work is their isolation. I mean they interact with a lot of people, bu they are always moving, always fighting...there's apoint where it's plausilbe that the barriers would break (and for brother's it would be primarily societal-cultural barriers. Opposite gender incest has the same problems with some additional issues.) And they'd almost have to break or at least bend a little or *they* might break under it.

I'm glad you liked it.

[litashields.livejournal.com]

You know, it's authors like you that have slowly but surely dragged me kicking and screaming into the Wincest fandom ^_^

[maygra.livejournal.com]

I keep saying, if I'm going to hell, I want *lots* of company.

:::hands litashields a bus pass:::,/i>

[saturnsdaughter.livejournal.com]

Oh god, I don't even know where to start trying to talk about how fabolous a story this is. The way you write, the depth you put into the brother's lives, the all-round... beauty of it all. I'm blown away... Wow. That's it, just wow. The words are all gone, hehe.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

thank you so much! I'm really glad you liked it!

[halfshellvenus.livejournal.com]

*Still fanning self* this was quite the story. Hot, intriguing, unfolded at such a nice pace. Totally sexy and satisfying.

As usual, there were many lines that I liked, but can't quote now because I lose them going into your LJ. But I vaguely remember Sam's curves and lines fitting into Dean's like they were cast from the same mold, and I liked that line in SO many ways.

Don't know why I bother to try writing Dean/Sam at all. You've got it so well covered, and heaven knows you don't make us wait long for new stories.

And who knew Jared was build like that under those baggy clothes? My. God.

[winterlive.livejournal.com]

Now that was awesome. Good characterization, nice transitions from 'I'm not okay with this' to 'I'm less not-okay with this'. PLAUSIBLE, which is the total deal-breaker for me.

I especially loved the by-play surrounding the sound of people having sex on the other side of the wall. That was a full sale, man, I bought that completely. Very nice.

And, um. HOT HOLY HELL. Yis.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

hee! Thank you so much!! I have to admit to a certian embarrassing fondness for staying at cheap motels when I was younger (and broke). The deocr was scary but the entertainment factor was high [g].

[jdsampson.livejournal.com]

Someone said, mindnumbingly brilliant - I second that. You make me crazy saying all the things I want to say and saying them so much better. I could give you specifics but it would only result in me pasting the entire story (all your stories) back in this post.

Every word is just right.

Now stop it. You're driving me crazy!!! Okay, don't stop - just slow down so I can catch up! LOL!

[maygra.livejournal.com]

yikes! Thank you very kindly. I'm rally, really glad you liked it. I'm seriously blown away by how much people like this story. It's very cool. Thank you so much for letting me now.

[l-vera01.livejournal.com]

Here I was actually keeping track of your Fast and the Furious fic and promptly got sidetracked by this new fandome - did I mention the show isn't even here in Sydney and already I *adore* your fic (g) This was *wow*! That's pretty much my default reaction everything I read here (g)

Vera

[maygra.livejournal.com]

This show is totally addictive and the fic too.I'm telling you we are all being possesed by eeeviiillll.

:::waves:::

I'm so glad you liked it.

[may-burrows.livejournal.com]

Oh... my... lord. This was the PERFECT, unexpected after-finals-week-present. Hot, and funny and still sweet and perfectly, perfectly in character. Love this to DEATH and back. *sighs* If this fic were a person, to use a grade-school cliche, I'd marry it.

[rawumber.livejournal.com]

I have melted into a puddle. Yup.

Splash of melted goodness!

[scribblinlenore.livejournal.com]

I read this when you posted it, and I was so short-circuited by the hotness that I couldn't type. *g*

Seriously, I LOVED this story. Love the characterization of Sam, and how they came together, and the line about the guy trying to use Dean to get Sam off being like trying to use Jessica. Great stuff!

[maygra.livejournal.com]

Jeesh, Lenore...I'm sorry I missed this comment forever ago.

Thank you so much! I'm really glad you liked it. You're kind of a hard act to follow [g].

[jooniper-pearl.livejournal.com]

Good God of Friday, Girl! I don't even watch this show and you've got me hooked. Damn! I had to go look to see which one was Sam and which one was Dean. Holy Shit! I don't know why I'm so surprised...everything you write is amazing and heart-thumping and just REAL.

I'm going to the special hell.

[maygra.livejournal.com]

Bwha!! You will be in good company. So glad you liked it!